Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Hello from Frankfurt airport

Blogging away from rainy Frankfurt. I'm in his town, but he is nowhere to be seen. My heart cries out and looks for him all over, but no sign of him, no telepathy between us.

Today's flight from dal to FRA, I cried in the darkness when nobody was seeing. It was literally painful to see other stewards. Couldn't stop myself from playing those scenarios with him. Singlehandedly, he made my last trip one of a kind. There was no single dull moment, but recent flight was so boring that it makes me wanna say never to long distance traveling. Not even one cute steward to lay eyes on. The whole flight absolutely no charm.

Maybe he is not a steward anymore. Four years is a lot of time. I'm surrounded by Lufthansa planes, maybe he is in one of those planes, or in the same building, but we are not destined to meet again I guess.  I don't think so he will do India leg, so no chances to see him for now.

I read 50 shades of grey to time pass in Lufthansa, and will continue to read in my next leg too. Oh please, someone wake him and let him know that I'm here. Being this journey with Lufthansa itself is a miracle as gulf airlines has overtaken my Indian city, but looks like no brilliant outcome from this trip . I really really want love from him at this juncture of my life. I really want to love someone who loves me the most. I'm really so lonely that living doesn't make sense, no single personal bright spot to something to look for. Yeah, I dressed up for the flight, but nobody has eyes like him to see something special in me. I guess nobody can give that genuine happiness ever. I lost him forever I guess. 

Hello, I'm in Frankfurt. Oh come on, how can you miss this chance to see me. You hold my happiness, please come. Let your instinct drag you here to me. I want to see you. I so much want to see you. 

Sunday, June 7, 2015

We could be heroes, me and you

That was the song played by my mind while I was still on the bed this morning and suddenly realized that wow, today is fourth anniversary. I'm still amazed to see how well I captured his stare and smile.

I don't know what that song means to my current status, but recently I've tossed aside the thought of him and labeled it as one among my foolish adventures, where as usual I overwhelmingly exaggerated the situation and enhanced my feelings to the nth power, but not anymore. Mistakes and experience teach out how to be grounded. If a hopeful girl was in my place, she would have screamed and given title to this post as I'LL BE FLYING LUFTHANSA AGAIN....WOOHOO!!! I'll meet my pal....we could be heroes, me and you. I know you can hear me, we are different now, we can do anything.

Yes, I'll be flying on Lufthansa to India on June 22nd. I'll be in FRANKFURT on June 23rd. Will I meet him again? Will we both recognize each other? From the time I came to know that I'll be flying by Lufthansa, I did not jump with joy or made a huge deal of it, keeping hope alive is foolishness. So I'll shut off my  expectations.

So many days, I really did not care for you. I thought it was all me who made a big deal of our meeting. Today, I feel different. Seeing you in the morning on today, the feelings are rushing in, the desires are peeking in...I've not progressed in my life not even a little bit in all these four years, I'm still the same...what about you? Are you still working with Lufthansa? Will you be there on that flight? Have you ever thought about me after that day?

Everyday people do everyday things but I / Can't be one of them / I know you hear me now, we are a different kind / We can do anything 

We could be heroes, you and me 

Happy Anniversary!! See you soon..haha that's funny!!💏🇩🇪✈💝🎉👍

Prove to me that I don't exaggerate things, but rather I see things just the way they are....